I have been trying to start this for a couple of days, tech challenges then health challenges struck (nothing serious, this lawsuit is making me sick).
I started the year in silence and well, save for a few tears and hoping to hear from ny attorneys one of these days.
Its been hard, im back to feeling like i was feeling in 2016 when I thought i was dying and i was too afraid to have dreams and wishes and wants, my brain feels like a sieve lately and i recite the things I experienced at work to keep remembering, for when we get to court.
The recession and the bad economy are not helping, so everything feels extra and heavier and more expensive, Ive gained a lot of weight from comfort eating ice cream ( i will probably quit it after this lawsuit), its an obsession now, i wake up and the first thing that comes to mind is the lawsuit.
In other news, my preference and I have decided to renew our agreement for another 6 months, its been interesting navigating this experience and getting comfortable with negotiating intimacy, life would definitely be much harder if i didnt have somebody to hold me once a week and dont get me started on the horny 40s, i feel like my vagina is on fire all the time (not like that) but ja, we need to talk about how your horny really tries to finish you in your 40s while the dating pool is filled with poop.
I had hoped to give a more detailed update but im so stressed, send money for a bottle of whisky, its the only thing i can drink without having a million regrets after.
Living life while waiting for life to happen is a very interesting experience but I wouldnt recommend it, so i guess the message to me as well is to go out and live or try to, whatever that might look like.
What i will tell you though, is that you dont have to settle for bad sex, there are people out there who actually like seeing your genuine cum face when they get to the right spot
Good morning and Happy Valentines Day